Illness' again

Well I can't really say who, in case not everyone knows yet, but someone I know and love has got breast cancer... Well it looks like cancer, feels like cancer, and is growing at a crazy insane rate like cancer... the pathology report will be out Wednesday.... aaaarrrrgggg!

I am crazy worried about it, I don't know what to say or do, you would think that after all this time and friends & relatives who have had it or died from it, it would be less shocky, but its not. I think it is because of the uncertainty, you live or die, maybe next month maybe it will go into remission for 20 years or forever, you just don't know.

I feel like a little kid, stomping her feet... now now now.... go away...... it would be nice if it was that easy.