Monday, July 13, 2009

Crossroads, Confusion, and Chocolate

Well lately I have been wildly aware of my lack of focus.   I have tried many times to "sit and listen" you know be calm and listen to my heart... to God, but I just can't get my mind to stop turning.  I understand that this is what I need to do, but how!  How is it possible for me to sit for even 5 minutes, cause when I do I am flooded and find as if a thousand voices are screaming and talking at once.  

Now before you make a call to a mental facility.... understand that I like my voices.  And maybe I like this lack of peace, most of the time.  Or am I  afraid of the quiet... who knows really, I don't.  I do know that I wish I had direction or focus.  I am afraid of the future because it seems so clouded and unsure.  

I would like to be able to finish a couple of projects I started that I think are good, like my book for instance.  But it got a little personal, and I began to have fear for some of those drudged little things... However, I have this desire to do it, but fear to do it and have taken a break, lack of focus for the original reasons I started doing it.  I am guessing anyhow.  

I am in this medical limbo which is probably what kicked off this sudden life moment.  Can't really do anything till we figure out what is going on.  I haven't truly committed to anything here lately, kind of sticking my feet in but not really diving in and committing to task.  This is all new for me, I have always been a fully committed kind of gal (not white coat committed...not yet)  I feel like I am living in a waiting for the other shoe to drop kind of world.

I know that I can't live like this, not with any kind of quality, so the question is  what do I do.  I am not completely sure of the  answer because I keep answering with regards to how it affects other people.  I listen to Dave Ramsey alot, something that would have the teenage version of me mortified... but he said something recently to a man on the show that got me thinking....  it was reference to a man who was wanting advice for starting a business,  simply put "don't do it unless it is something that you can't wait to do when you wake up and the last thing you think of when you go to sleep at night"  I don't really have that... at all, unless it is something I am "chewing on" at the moment.

I think the answer lies within that, I just have to somehow find it, find me, in all this craziness! 

Friday, July 10, 2009

VBS & summer church activities... thanks Crossroads church

Here is a list generated by Crossroads Church or local VBS and church activities....  this is what is left for the summer


What:  Summer Movie Madness

When: Thursday afternoons from June 25 – July 30 (1:00 PM-3:00 PM)

Where: New Hope Church

Ages: 1st Grade – 6th Grade

Cost: Free

Contact: Raylene, 636-8733


July:

1What: Extreme Makeover, Bible Edition

When: July 12th – July 16th (5:00 PM – 8:00 PM)

Where: Christ Lutheran Church (3830 W. Tulare Ave.)

Ages: Birth – 100 years old

Cost: Free (includes a meal)

Contact: 732-1851 or office@clcvisalia.org

 

2.       What: Outback Jack (Stillwaters Ranch)

When: July 13th – July 17th (6:00 PM – 8:30 PM)

Where: Calvary Chapel (11720 Ave. 264)

Ages: 3 years old – 6th Grade

Cost: Free

Contact: Pastor Mike, 687-0220 or mikebuford@calvarychapel.com

 

3.       What: Naz Sports Camp

When: July 27 – July 31 (8:30 AM – 12:15 PM)

Where: Visalia Nazarene Church (3333 W. Caldwell)

Ages: 4 – 12 years old

Cost: $85.00 per child

Contact: Dee Flynn, 734-1117

 

 

 

 

 

4.       What: CKidz Miracles Preschool Camp (Crossroads Community Church)

When: July 31st (8:00 AM – 10:30 AM)

Where: Adventure Park

Ages: 3 years to Kindergarten

Contact: Barb Shy, 280-0172 or Barb@visaliacrossroads.com

 

August:

1.       What: CKidz Crazy Camp (Crossroads Community Church)

When: August 3 – August 7 (8:00 AM – 10:30 AM)

Where: Adventure Park

Ages:  1st  Grade– 6th Grade

Contact: Barb Shy, 280-0172 (Barb@visaliacrossroads.com)

 

 

Monday, July 6, 2009

I'm Back!

yeah the computer is fixed and I am back... I am amazed at just how dependent I am on this thing.  The irony of this broken computer issue is that after it broke, and I took it to the Mac genius; I turned to my back up windows computer and that same day the monitor was so fuzzy that I couldn't read the screen, and there was no way I was dumping anymore money into windows again.  So I spent most of this time squinting and zooming the screen 300% 

Well this weekend we got Mac back plugged her in and now the windows computer is perfectly fine!  I guess windows missed Mac too!

Oh and by the way Mac fixed my computer for free... again... and this is with an expired warranty!

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Quickie: Food Pyramid Menu Planner

Found this little menu planner based on the food chart, plan you meals and it spells it out in a graph.  A good way to see just exactly how much you are getting in each food group.  

http://www.mypyramidtracker.gov/planner/

Monday, June 8, 2009

Home Based Speech Therapy Program! by NATHHAN

GOD is so AWESOME... I had been wanting a copy of the home based speech therapy program... Straight Talk. But it is on the pricey side, for our budget. Long story shorter... I am getting a copy for $20 woo hoo


NATHHAN National Challenged Homeschoolers Associated Network.  According to their website there goal and purpose is: To encourage homeschooling families with special needs children, in ways that glorify the Lord Jesus Christ and equip parents to confidently raise their children with special needs or disabilities.

I have heard nothing but raving reviews and no-one is selling/letting go of there used copies.  So I am excited that the company is helping us out.  

For more information 

Christian Families Homeschooling Special Needs Children http://www.nathhan.com/

http://starwoodlearningprogram.blogspot.com/

Friday, June 5, 2009

Search... Search... and more Search

Well search engines might seem like a rather dry subject... but, I saw a commercial the other day and I thought.  REALLY another way to search... I used to swear by dogpile.com.  Its a meta search, which is basically summarizes the best of all the major searches.  Until I was google-ized; which only happened because "googled" became an action word, you know like post it or coke (even though we all know we want a nice refreshing Pepsi)  

Well I was intriqued by the commercial, so I checked it out.  I did I side by side search on the two, and I really like the way that bing looks easy on the eyes with a big beautiful photograph that changes so the artist in me loves it. 

I don't think it searches any better it certainly looks better and I think I will probably like it more when I figure out out to get them to pick up my websites :-)

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Worries and Woas

Do you ever see someone you love, who suddenly their behavior radically changes, decisions are different,  you watch them crash and crash.  You try to stay on the sidelines hoping that it will be okay...  Its like a car crash in slow motion.  Do you yell out in time to try and stop it.

Well I learned that when you do and the person doesn't see anything is wrong... it doesn't go well.  No matter how many people agree with you, it does not matter.  This explosion occurred through an innocent situation that turned far out of control way to fast.

I am afraid for her, she doesn't see it the same way as we all do, and I get that, because sometimes when a behavior or concern is brought to my attention, I didn't even notice it myself.  So I get that she probably doesn't see what we all see.  Is it best to stay out of it,  Do you say something, How do you do it without seeming like your attacking the person.

I wish she saw what we saw.   I miss her and I'm sad because now our relationship is tarnished, for how long I don't know.  I miss the kids, I wish they weren't brought in to it.  It's too late to wonder and wish, the bottom is hit and we can only go up.


Friday, May 29, 2009

Funny Quotes

"Hillary Clinton says it takes a village to raise a child. I've seen the village; and I don't want it raising my child." - unknown


Friendship is like peeing on yourself:  everyone can see it, but only you get the warm feeling that it brings -unknown


If you die in an elevator be sure to push the up button -unknown


"Fragile. Do not drop." --posted on a Boeing 757


"Middle age is when your age starts to show around your middle." -Bob Hope 


"A hippie is someone who looks like Tarzan, walks like Jane and smells like Cheetah." -Ronald Reagan 


"I never think of the future - it comes soon enough."- Albert Einstein 





    ...compliments of random websites, and magazines

Thursday, May 28, 2009

How has technology affected me positively

How has technology affected me in a positive manner.  Let me start, as always, with a story.  You see I don't consider myself a cat person I have had 2 in my entire life.  One as a child and one now...  You see as a kid I begged my Momma for this kitty, and she was beautiful all grey with black patterns all through her fur.  I kept her inside all the time, I loved it... till I had to clean that litter box!  But I muscled through it,  she slept on my bed, followed me everywhere, and filled that litter box.  ugh!   gross, I hated it and when I forget to fill it.  Not only was I grounded but I still had to clean the overfilled disgusting thing.  

So needless to say, I never asked for another!  Somehow I found myself many years later with a cat, and yet the same problem.  Now I really love this cat.  But I really don't love cat droppings...  Years ago they started advertising the automatic kitty litter pan!  You know clip the lid on it when its full and dump it.  I have been foaming at the mouth for one of these forever but it is hard to justify on a tight budget, $100 for it.  In the back of my mind I kept thinking what if I do get it, and its not all what the hype is all about.

Well one day at a thrift store they had one $6, I nearly ran with it to the counter.  The lady said "oh... someone can use it"  I went on about how I had been looking for one of these for years, and how excited I was for my lucky find.  She then asked what is was I told here.  She laughed and said well we had that in the back for over a year and didn't know what it was, we almost threw it in the trash!

I nearly fell over.  Needless to say this thing is awesome!  I know you might have thought that I would say a cell phone, or ipod; which these things are truly fabulous things in my world, but the Automatic cat box is the bomb-diggity!  


Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Bad Bad Day

So my cat had been missing for several days, and I thought that since she was so old that she had died somewhere.  Until I had heard from one of the neighborhood kids that one of the parents had been trapping cats because they "p" in his backyard?!  So on an afterthought I went down to the VOSPCA to see, not expecting much.  

I filled out a gaggle of information just to get to the "cat house" (ha ha), which is really just an old trailer.  I was perusing the cages saddened by the sheer amount of cats and kittens, there were tons of them.  When I heard the familiar deep meow of my cat Calico, I was dumb founded and burst into tears, she rubbed her head against the cage and I tried to pet her with my finger through the bars and reassured her (well, more me) that I will be right back.  
 
I trotted back to the office to tell them the good news.... and to get my kitty.  The lady smiled lightly, obviously nowhere near as excited as I was, come to think of it as any animal "liker" would be, which you would hope would be some sort of pre-requisite at this organization.    So she asked some more questions, and printed some stuff and walked up to the counter and said, the total cost is $74!   What?  Cost?  

She went on, stiffly, saying that there was a boarding fee, a penalty fee, a shelter fee, a licensing fee... First of all what licensing fee, aren't cats free roaming animals; as it turns out it is a city fee that has been around for a while.. funny how since I never got a notice that a license on my cat was due.... just like all the other animals I have adopted over the years from the VOSPCA, why wasn't I notified?  

I burst into more tears and freaked out thinking how is my budget going to handle this, there was no offer of any help at all, and not a shred a compassion from this women.  I freaked out thinking how in the hell, am I going to be able to walk out these doors and leave my cat behind, the whole family will be upset about it, including my 8 year old.  At first I was real angry at the neighbor for doing this to me, which the women was kind enough to repeat a few times that it was within his rights to trap this cat and bring it in.  But I ask you what about my rights, it's not like I can keep this cat from jumping a fence, like a dog.  Granted she is an inside cat about 90% of the time but still she needs the fresh air.  

And guess what even if her breakaway safety collar that has her info on it and/or license, comes off you will still be penalized.  Oh yeah even if she is chipped and or licensed it still would have cost me a ton of fees to get her back to the tune of $58, so what is the point here really.  So that would mean each time the neighbor catches her, I could pay up to $40 per incident to rescue my cat, and that is if they can get a hold of me after only one day.  

I can justify these fees with dogs, I have had dogs if your fence is good, they won't get out.  But a cat, and especially since this is the first time I have ever had to pick up a lost animal ever and we have been adopting from VOSPCA for over 15 years if I am remembering accurately 

Most of them she pointed out were city fees,  so I asked her who I can talk to at the city..... after a brief moment she said "well I don't know the name of the person"  that's okay, what about the department I can talk to anyone about this, maybe get some of the fees removed...  again she said "I don't know the number"   Now I am getting frustrated because her actions and answers make me feel like she is being evasive, does she not want me to talk to the city.  So what is the name of the department, I can find the number myself... "I don't know... maybe animal welfare"  You collect fees for the city and you don't know where you send the check to.  I was on fire at this moment, because either they have hired an office manager who truly has no idea what is going on other than processing checks, and filling out lost animal and adoption reports, or there is something else entirely going on. 

oh and by the way "tomorrow is the last day because she has been here for several days"  I panicked, and I assured her that somehow I was going to get the money and for nobody to touch my cat!  I finally was able to get my kitty, and get her home, she follows us all around the house meowing constantly and  is nearly frustrated when we are all not in the same room.  

I still can't stop thinking about this whole thing.  When I called the city, I was transferred to many offices who not only do not have any idea if there is an animal welfare department, they don't even know where the money goes.  The best answer I have gotten thus far was from a nice gentleman, is that it is suspected that the VOSPCA keeps the money for their services to the city. But no one know where to get a copy of the contract to even look at it.  Why was she so evasive with her answers, why doesn't anyone know what is going on with this relationship the city has with this group.  

In my frustration I have decided that the pen is mightier that a few aggravated words on the phone... phone calls are easily forgotten.  So I have a series of letters explaining in detail my dealings with this situation that will be going to the board of directors, executive director, the city or phantom department who handles animal welfare, and anyone else who might be interested in hearing about it.  

In the past I have always been a huge supporter and advocate of the VOSPCA, but after this experience I am just not so sure.  I have found that there are other groups, shelters, and animal advocacy's in this area that I will support instead.